Tuesday, April 13, 2004 @9:10 PM
Dear khairun..
I still treat you that you are havin a long vacation.
last year, when school reopen after June holiday, first day first thing.. You left us with a harmful joke. Damn.. Don't you how much that hurts? Each and everyone of us, was really really wished this would not and
NEVER had happen. And I guess I'm the one last one knows about it eh? Yah... Though I got to know u from band or from our sch house Everest. We always got sooooo many thing to share -- singing, idols, guyz, cursin' those people who we dun like... i still remember the last thing that we did together was playing at plasam malam, the 'disco dance' (i not sure izzit correct).. yah, you, jia hao, aisiah, iskander and me were there.. haha.. yah, i think we set for 3 round right?... and we promise that the next time we come and play again..
that was really really really the last time i saw you before u left.
my dear friend,
you always liked to put on ur lovely smile everytime.
after since you left... i started to realize ur everything..
ur sorrows, ur burden, ur unhappiness, ur loneliness, ur depression...
becoz of u, my life has changed.
your story was ended. i guess i helpin u to continue for u
i finally can understand..
understand ur everything..
understand why u bottle-up all ur feelings,
understand why u smile everything,
understand why u hide all ur worries from ur family,
understand why u cant sleep peacefully,
understand why u everytime said u cant go on this kind of life..
i been through your everything.
you changed my life.
it felt very sickening, depressed, torn-up, sad.
juz keep falling down everytime..
feelin hopeless.
but now, i wanna stop this.
i gonna change it. i will continue this story for you.
i'm standing up again. make things better than last time
and it would be a good one.
i promise.
miss you lots'..
my dear friend.... =)
