Thursday, March 31, 2005 @7:55 PM
wot if i say. i still cant get over to be alone.
if it was late time. i guess u probably by my side.
tho u are so far away from me but u are near.
i wonder wot makes the both of us stopp communicating.
or u've actually choose to end it.
somehow i believe. all the things u do. is all fer my own gd.
but. i also wantin u can tok to me juz like last time.
i tried my best.
whenever i need u. i tried v hard to tell myself to go on my own.
tis happened juz like last time b4 i met u.
i had been always liddat. till the dae i met u.
feels like a magic touch.
u might see me gone wild n siao sometime.
the reason i became like tt becos. well.
80% : natural. 20.9% : hopin u wld turn around n join in. or shld i say i hope i can caught ur attention?
i sound pretty silly. am i?
pls tell me if u care abt me.
pls tell me if u still bother abt me.
pls tell me if u miss me.
pls tell me if u feel the same way as i do.
pls dun let me be the last to knoe..
hold me tight. or else i might fly away.
time is pullin me away from u..
Friday, March 25, 2005 @7:05 PM
hi all. well. listenin to starry starry night.
josh groban version. damn sad songg.
yaa. my eng commond short story is on vincent van gogh.
i realli feel v sad fer him. and yes yes.
my next lesson. i gotta pain his starry nite of my v own version. bahh. i v weak in colouring wan. jia lart.
aniway. gd fri. the dae when jesus died on the cross.
no. i didnt go church todae. haha. i also dunnoe go dere do wot. eh. i became christian fer like one yr onli.
yaa. i think i goin church on sat or maybe sat
tis is dae when jesus was rose from the dead. amazing grace. amen to all. he came to earth. save us from sin. heal the sick wan and all. i believe in god.i nt sure izit becos i'm still v new to christian stuff. but sometimes i juz cldnt feel tt god is wif me. oh well.
commond test comin too. next wk.
DESMOND QUEK. u better pray i can pass at lease 5 sub.
ornt. u dun think of leavin ur life in peace. BWAAHAHA.
yes yes. syf. i think i cocked up some part again during performance. -_- i nervous laa. fugg. i noe i went up on stage fer the freakin lots time. but TIS IS DIFFERENT.
different from those time i sing on stage solo.acting play my flute. BUT i'm percussionist. noob percussionist!!
heard frm my form teacher tt the bloody principal didnt like the wait i stand while i playin my mallet.
alamak. wots her fuggin prb. fugg n die laa :X tok so much fer wot. can play fer me durin syf laaa :XX
starting my tuition v soon too. sighh.
sec 5 isnt tt fun too. and also tis yr there wont be ani prom nite!!! u noe y?? stupid sch gonna celebrate our 40th anniversy wif the DSTS alumni uncles aunties. 23rd july is the big dae. media and all comin to our sch. v grand la. one tix fer tt nite cost u 60bux per pax.
believe it ornt. president nathan is comin to our sch.
lots of thing goin on arr. sauy. got president challeng. bloody hell. sch gotta ask all of us to rise fund. tis time is 2000k u noe??? twice as 2yrs ago. oh fugg. how i hope they kiddin man. bad bad bad.
how? my life is damn bz till i can melt anitime.
wanna uah also cannot. do u think i can make it fer o lvl? syf? swsy concert? n everythingg?? x_x"
gee. tts all folk shall update soon! tc n god bless.
Monday, March 21, 2005 @6:12 PM
BAH. pple. i am super stress.
yea. still always seein me jumpin here n there non-stop ritee.
sryy. i am tryin distress myself.
boohoo. if i cant make it fer my commond test.
bah, ITE will wave hand at me. NO. DESMOND QUEK ALL UR FAULT :X
yeaaaa. syf comin. i tryin pretty hard to teach my jr.
get my parts correct. maintain the band well.
yes. tts y i am so stress.
and come to think abt it. i juz realised. i gt nobodi to share my feelin wif.
beside u bloggie. haha. bahh.
if. it was last time it might be diff i guess.
noo. everything still come to the same thing.
yeshh. tis is rubbish. i'm tokin rubbish.
oo. somebodi. save me?
Sunday, March 20, 2005 @11:08 PM
tell me. tell me wots goin-
i am so confused. realli.
gees. i miss u soo.
`-Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Why don't I like the girl I see
The one who's standing right in front of me
Why don't I think before I speak
I should have listened to that voice inside me
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
I let my pride get in the way
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realize
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby, my baby to me
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
@11:36 AM
hello all.im blogging for sandy.
haha,oh well.she's doing my art for me.lalalas
so here im blogging.
haha.she's so high now.lalala.i wonder whye.
must that those naruto of hers.madness.
lalal =candice
Thursday, March 17, 2005 @11:57 PM
sry pple! been super busy latelyy.
lols! yupp. syf comin.
gsb syf will be on the 12/4/05.
band number 41.
realli worry band more than my studies rite now ://
damn stress la.
haha. bahh. so mani hmwk. cant bother actually :X
i doin my v best to get the band to work together as one.
yupp. come on. i gotta work more on the band intonation.
I GOTTA WORK HARDDDDDD FER THE BAND \(*.*)/
Sunday, March 13, 2005 @12:07 AM
Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Tuesday, March 08, 2005 @11:46 PM
bleahs. pple dunch worry so much
fer me. i'm okayyy (^^)v
hahaa. also nt sure wot on earth things are goin on too ://
i'm glad right now everyone seem doin okayy. yupp. lets work hard together kkae.
common test cominn.
i gotta work hard fer suree. \(>.<)/
oh yes yes. flute alsoo. SYF. SWSY CONCERT. i will do my best in the band.
as a seniorr in gsb. as a newbie in swsy.
i will give my very best to it.
yeaa. so happi u gt gd result fer ya Os.
wheEEe. ur dream had come true. engineering course.
praise the Lord. my prayer had been heardd fer all these time.
i knew everything u do. is all fer my own gdd.
i nvr gotta let ya down.
makin u happy. nvr give up on things tt make u smile.
keep prayin i can always be a person who u can depend on. sharing every joy and tear wif.
whether we are still frends ornt. but one thing i'm sure is.
we are holding to each other tightly.
tts wot i believe.
and i keep prayingg.
love ya.
'The feelings that i hv for u can nv be understood through words but only when we hold each other tightly'
Tuesday, March 01, 2005 @2:37 AM
i noe i suppose be slping now.
but. i juz cldnt stop cryin.
i realli feelin sad fer most of my frends.
they didnt do well fer their Os.
and i tried to cool them down.
msg them. and all of them told me they are fine.
somehow. i still feelin sad.
and hopeless.
tis feelin is like wot i felt abt khairum.
she always its okies. nvm, i'll be okayy.
and in the end... the onli thing i cld to do.
was see her leavin us.
can u understand how it feelin?
my life. is filled wif lots of broken glasses.
i'm glad some of my frends did it.
but those frends. are mostly. is kind of a world where i dunch belong to.
i seriously gettin tired.
to smile to joke around. when i wasnt in the mood to do so.
juz like naruto. naruto felt tt way too.
esp in swsy. i'm the worse and lousy player down dere. i swear.
confidence is onli thing i lack of.
i hoping to improve myself. juz to play fer the concert.
my 1st concert as a musician n as a swsy memeber.
but whenever i made mistake while playin.
those pair of eyes starin at me. is all so discouraging.
i tot of quittin swsy.
cos i felt tt i dunch belong to that band too.
and shld i say.. i dun suit to be a musician at all.
but some reason. which i still pretty hesitate on it.
tts some of frends down dere.
i will nvr find the confident sandy back.
she already died 3yrs ago. wif khairum.
things will nvr be the same again.
no matter how hard i tried.
things will nvr be the same again. realli.
time will can nvr bring a person back.
i already lost one person who are v important to me recently.
tell me. when is tis gotta end?
