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Saturday, March 31, 2007 @2:02 AM

realli ve gt no idea how to start

1st thing 1st,
i realli exhausted nt jus frm FOP trainin
and also catchin acapella performance.

yupp. i went to support my acapella peeps.
i miss them x(

lols. durin performance.
thankfully hao ren n ronnie were there to entertain me
other wise i wld have fall aslp or smth.
it was so damn funni lar.
lolololol.

oh yes yes.
dun forget abt FOP trainin.
it was realli great. well seriously im nt the onli feelin tired.
after all those dancin. cheerin, shoutin! walkin n all.
oh my. drained!

im doin my best u noe.
realli.
tell me u are also.
at least im nt alone.
its nt a one-man-show

thankew cpc! (:

Thursday, March 29, 2007 @11:43 PM

i tot todae gonna be another bad dae fer me
cos it started realli bad.
plus i fall down on my way to band prac.

but but but.
todae rpws band prac was realli realli great.
n plus its so nice to see some familiar faces like brenden, brandon n 5d (:
esp 5d. sure i miss him alot-
n! the 3rd clarinet guy looks cute (:
motivate me even more. LOL.
oh pls. im a ger can.

too bad xing hui cant play wif the band.
hes bz workin.
fer sch fees n all.

seriously its so weird tt pple callin him spencer -.-

maybe becos i've been callin him xing hui all these.. 3,4 yrs?

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well,
i feelin so much better.
thanks sj (: thanks thanks.
tho i still feelin littttttttle bit discouraged in some way.
i will detach tt feelin away soon.

thanks rpws (:
at least u givin me a reason to work hard.
n tts one of my home.

at least i noe. its all worth it. realli-

those unknown answers.
time will tell me in future.

"I don’t care why, the only way to win is to risk it all
Not be afraid to fall "

Wednesday, March 28, 2007 @11:19 PM

weishi weishi.
were u realli shocked tt time
wif all the things i said to u when we were headin back to chalet frm the beach?
or isit becos i dun look like those kind person who will say all these words?

rawr.

signed up fer 2 FOP.
one of them is STA itself. our very own FOP.
another wan which is under OSG.

some more is like
held together within one wk.
last wk of our holidae-

sigh.

i jus broke my nail polish.
gonna clean the glass pieces n all.

nt my dae again.
wots goin on?

@2:07 AM

daddy!
u noe im a greedy ger.
if u're here. i think i will give u a great great GREAT headache.
cos i will pester u fer lots of Tender Lovin Care which u owe me so long ago.

but dad do u blame me tt im too weak?
gee.


jus switched on my ps2
playin ff12.
was goin to have a fight wif the boss.
but dunnoe y, i saved my game instead
n switched off.

chicken.
im off to bed.

Monday, March 26, 2007 @8:29 PM

neck is slightly better.
still kinda hurts tho.

aniways thanks gerg n weishi (:

went back greenridge wif muhaimin.
didnt noe todae was sectional thur out.
tryin my best to teach them how to listen n blend in well.
im sooooooooo glad tt melissa n angie put in effort.

oh jac n kaitee also went back too.

nth much lar.
went to bt panjang plaza n shopp around wif muhaimin-
n i bought final fantasy 12 game.
yayness (:

sadly i dun have much appetite todae.
wastin food.

oh.
recently i started to listen to angela aki's song

at 1st i wonder y pple like her songs so much
cos her vocal range isnt tt amazing, honestly.

but when i listen to one of her song "home"
esp right now, the down mood im havin.
i think i can feel smth frm her song.



translation of her "home" (:

Back when I was tied to this simple little town
With a delicate thread
When I looked up to it, the sky would
Reflect images of a far off world

How long will it be before
I leave this small little place behind?

Home is calling
Even now, my home town gently resounds within my heart
On dreamless nights colored with loneliness
I'm calling out to you

In entrusting my dreams to the city sky
I'm sacrificing my heart
Love and ambition don't go well together
Everyone wanders about

Those honest and simple days
For some reason, I think fondly of them

Home is calling
My home town
I want to see the faces of the people who constantly
Loved me there, once more
Homesick, I'm calling out to you

When I gently opened the curtain between
The past and present
The light that spilled from a crack in the sky
Shone down on the changing times

Home is calling
Even now, my home town gently resounds within my heart
I don't know how to stay in one place
Even if I give myself to my desires
On dreamless nights colored with loneliness
I'm calling out to you
Home is always calling out my name
On dreamless nights colored with loneliness

I'm calling out to you
I'm calling out to my home town


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Angela_Aki

if onli i can feel as if im home when i see u.
dun bring back things tt i've detached.

lost of words.
BYE.

switchin to game mode.
IM OFF TO PLAY FF12.

p.s. thanks muhaimin! hopefully, u noe. hahaha yupp (:

Sunday, March 25, 2007 @9:06 PM

was readin my frend, christopher, his blog entry.
haha!
he actualli went back his pri sch n teach.

tis is wot how he n his students communicates-

Students: Teacher !! Got Girlfriend ??
Him: No...
Students: Orrh Horr! Teacher's Gay!! haha.. u gay u gay u gay
Him: Okay, i've a girlfriend
Students: Orrhh Horr! Teacher Pervert !! Pervert Pervert Pervert


n i think theres a blog
i think u pple MUST check out.

http://www.laozhabor.blogspot.com/

enjoy (:

hurrrrr. boredem ):
makes me feel so retarded even more.
i need a bk to read.
AHEMMMMMMMM. BOOK. NOVEL, u noe (:

cos. im gettin tired.
some kind of tiredness tt slp doesnt realli can cure

Saturday, March 24, 2007 @11:47 PM

i went back to greenridge!
change another new conductor.
band become bigger.

my dearest n beloved jr didnt throw away the old mallet tt i've used durin syf (:

so.
im goin back again on mon.

u noe.
i dun realli have sweet memories durin my sec sch band daes.
or rather have more heartache impact.

jus tt,
tis band i jus cant bare to leave alone totally-
maybe this was the place tt changed my life so much.

seriously,
if i nvr gt the chance to touch the flute.
i dunnoe where my passion fer music shld head to.

ALIGHT.
i bought sun yan zi new album le-

if u didnt noe.
im actualli also a big fan of stefani sun yan zi (:
she's one of the artist who inspired me to sing ;D

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aniway.
sick n tired of boredem?
i can intro some type cool stuff to u
to kill time.
better than those pple who's sooo gameaholic rite now.
opps.

here goes-



the oringial (:

becomes....










wahas.
jus happen to hop on to one of my fav blogger's post.
cpc sj n i tt time happen to read it together.
while we chao-in away frm wkshop (:

cool huh?

watch out.
if next time anione of u piss me off
i think i will do tt to u.
RAWRROAR.

Thursday, March 22, 2007 @11:37 PM

gonna bz.
So so so so bz. seriously.
over these 2 wks or all the way when sch starts.

omg?

hoho, gt the syf list.
dearest greenridge symphony band will be judge on 12th april
shall go back to sec sch tmr.

FOP comin.
more band pracs.
i think i wanna help my sec sch band too.
do catch up wif frends.
spend time wif myself n family.
AND I CANT WAIT FER STEFANI'S NEW ABLUM.

so mani things is comin up!

im so excited.
im so worried.
im so scared.

wots waitin fer me in front?
can u understand my feelin rite now?

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

aniway,
havin some chat wif my deary flute section.
hope orange have a safe trip-
(:

sarah mentioned tis durin convo.
"the more time u spend together the more you will be and look like one another."

there gonna be more times tt im nt by ur side.
so hey, will u think of me?

Wednesday, March 21, 2007 @11:48 PM

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.
You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward.
Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.
All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.
What Time Of Day Are You?



sunrise. speakin of tt.
didnt manage to catch the sunrise durin chalet.
cos the sky was too cloudy.

yupyupp
im back frm chalet.

last nite of the chalet.
while tryin my best to stay in a weird position.
was reflectin on lots of thing.

my tots fer a band.
n the pple there.

after tt. i dunnoe why
i tot of the time
most of us gonna go on our own seperate ways.
well, i will treat it as all kinds of warnin fer myself.

funni aint it?
maybe im afraid theres an answer.
tts y sometimes i question myself n answer back to myself.

now i have to blame myself
of being coward.

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tt moment.
magic still lingers around,
flowin in the air.
smth makin me so hard to open my eyes.

tryin hard to go against tt light,
but all i saw was tears.

i dun wan to push it animore.
face it n embrace it.

the warmth within.

n tis feelin is jus like
the moment when the sun has jus rised.

"future is fear when unknown, but its joy when its clear"

-frm watchin goong s (:



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反复证明这份爱有多不对
背对着你如此漆黑
忍住疲惫

一直就在我身旁
感觉爱存在的地方

感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

sry no translation (:


Monday, March 19, 2007 @10:55 AM

until ytd while was havin dinner wif mel n rest after swsy prac.
they told me sundae's actualli st james's gay nite............

no no no.
is nt i detest gay.
i pretty okay wif them.
is u noe. fer me if i go fer gay nite.
is kinda weird lar.

aniways.
i go there also like hmm.
johann was the poor thing.
lol. i saw his pathetic facial expression

kk. i stop tokin abt tis.
leave it fer chalet to share xD

ya. I WILL BE OFF FER CHALET.
comin back tis web.

so so.
ya. i havent pack my stuffs yet ;\

LOL.
i blog more when i come back folks!
xD

Saturday, March 17, 2007 @11:42 PM

i wonder whether isit medicine is causin side effect or wot.
cos i feelin unusual weak.
when i tend to focus i will feel kinda giddy.

jus hope i wont have to go toilet nonstop.
tts all i asked fer >.<
i dun wan stuck in the bed rm while others are havin fun >.>

okok.
sorry i have to delay some special entery.

aniways.
todaes sws com wks was realli realli GREAT ^^

thanks fer comin sahilah! (:

yup, i was bz helpin out b4 the concert
wif the rest of swsy peeps.
ahaha, n beiyi's back frm shaghai! (x

n ya. i did smth pretty weird b4 the concert.
lols. thanks to the sws president :x



love them to bites (:
ever since frm 3,4 yrs ago
they saw me cryin
saw me smilin
n they've been tkin gd care of me-

love grows (((((:
still growin'

Thursday, March 15, 2007 @9:11 AM

ytd was pretty tirin.
brought sj to poly clinic
was already v tirin :x
but well, it worths (:

chao-ed wkshop.
slacked at the canteen.

meet up wif desmond n rudi
fer dinner (:
n it was great-

rite now still feelin feverish
and stomach nt feelin well.

sigh.
y i've gt such a fragile body,
even fragile heart?

aniways.
thanks bev n sj.
feelin soooooo much better tokin to u gers (:

用我最大的决心
要自己
爱了放了没有恐惧

我一个人也可以很ok (:

Wednesday, March 14, 2007 @12:31 AM

$$$$ = :DDDDD !

YES.

but but. control me pple.
i bet i can spend it within one dae -.-

hoepfully i try my best nt to ask $$ frm my family at least 2 wks.

meetin desmond, rudi n hopefully candice too!
ya fer dinner. didnt seen them fer long time.

EH. callin fer my shoppin mates!
FRI we go around n shop or smth (:
maybe gt stuffs we needed fer chalet too.

o ya.
i think my kidish behavour run abit out of control durin band prac.
sry mr yusri.

i cant deny
sometimes sayin simple words to someone whos close to our heart its so diffcult.
n these simple words do wonders.

like u did smth wrong unintentionally
no matter how hard u tired by sayin random things.
but all they've been waitin fer was jus one 'sry'
and its frm ur heart.

n mom,
i love you.
i hope u love me too

sometimes all i needed was jus a little small encouragement.
frm you, you n you x 100000

since u needed tt too.
lets learn to encourage one n another then (:

Monday, March 12, 2007 @11:55 PM

She's so lucky/she's a star/but she cry, cry cries/in her lonely heart," Britney Spears sang in her 2000 hit "Lucky."

At the time, it seemed like a hollow complaint. The 19-year-old beauty was on top of the pop world, with two hit albums and a devoted Justin Timberlake.

Seven years later, those lyrics seem much more relevant as the once-bubbly Brit struggles with a panoply of personal problems and a stalled career. The world is left wondering: What was responsible for this breakdown, and can it be fixed?

"You have a woman whose life is in extraordinary disarray. She's had two recent children, a divorce, a stressful lifestyle," says Drew "Dr. Drew" Pinsky, an addiction specialist and personality on the Discovery Health Channel. "I don't know what the status of her friend relationships is; she seems to have none."

Is her loneliness killing her, as she sang in her 1998 breakout single "… Baby One More Time"?




i noe im slow
but i dun get it.
wots goin on wif britney?

she shaved blad.
wots next? :/

if she becomes like the way she use to be last time.
n be a gd mother...

come on britney.
gt goin!

@10:23 PM

YAY.
i bought my dress (: !
but im tired. i need my beauty slp.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

@12:47 AM

gonna club soon.
jamie askin me on the fri.
sure i miss her alot (:
tis time better wear long sleeves.

melvin askin me too.
next sundae.

im nt chiongster but wot else can i do.
i jus wanna release my tension.

come on, dun make me a sadder person.
aniways i cant drink alot too. so yea.

wahh. gonna be so bz.

catch up n more catch up (x

how abt chili?

aniway. gt my tix fer com wks le
EH PPLE. GO PLS.
is tis comin sat evenin.
pls gooooooooo. pls.

workin in few hrs time.

have to work.
still gotta pay fer my practical exam fee.
oh man.

sometimes i am afraid of having no one to rely on.
sometimes i needed someone badly.
but i dun ever want to be unable to take care of myself.
Independence.
irony.

Sunday, March 11, 2007 @11:14 AM

ouch.
its a gd dae i realli look forward to.
but it started tis way.

im nt thinkin too much but
sometimes i wonder my mom realli loves me.
or she sees me as a responsibility tt she have to look after me.

its kinda embarrassing tt i have pretend to slp
n use my pillow cover my cryin face.

i noe i can be a burden
but i wan to noe whether she loves me ornt.

ornt i have lesser season to explain to myself
"tt y does my heart keep on beatin?"

@1:06 AM

went down to uniSIM.
jus company gar meng to look around there.

like woah.
attended the tok there
n i wasnt payin full attention (:

cos was thinkin abt my future career,
so unsure.

but hey.
jus settle my o lvl eng n my poly diploma 1st la hor.

cant wait fer my pay to bank in to my acc.
COS I SAW A DRESS N I REALLI LIKE IT.
i reserved. @ central. a new shoppin centre (:

was plannin to buy mitch albom bk, "fer one more dae".
but it cost 30 bux ++ !
so maybe buyin "the 5 pple u meet in heaven".

i wanna buy shoes. i wanna buy ear piece fer my hp.
i wanna buy....
ARGH. i jus gt 106 bux onli man!

but who cares.
(:
so anione wanna go shoppin wif me next wk (: ?

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another point of randomness.
saw my frend's nick
it says : pple usualli say we shld treasure things around us. but y usualli we start to treasure them when we've lost them? - am i treasured anyway ?

tts the feelin of something / someone always wif u.
n they leave wif out gd bye.

so hey finish ur unfinish.
b4 they're gone.

uber emo :/
well.

penny of ur tots?

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Well, my days went by at a dizzying pace

I was always running to and fro
And then before I even knew where I was
Off to dreamland I would go

But now I realize that a day of my life
Is the price I must pray for tomorrow
You have taught me to treasure every day
With its joy and its sorrow

You know that I'm the one who's always being swept away
Always torn apart
How I wish that there was something I could do for you

Simply from my heart
Darling, at the close of day
Silently for love we'll pray

Now night has finally come to the busy city sky
Where quietly the moon is shining down
On the paths of people hurrying home
She sheds her light all around

And in this heart of mine your love is shining down
It's lighting up my future and my past
That is the reason I'm living now

Treating each day as my last

And if you want to know the reason I'm crying, dear
It's 'cause I love you so
How I wish that there was something I could do for you
Just to let it show
Darling, at the close of day
Silently for love we'll pray

Now if you want to know the reason I'm crying, dear
It's 'cause I love you so
How I wish that there was something I could do for you
Just to let it show
Tomorrow's just a dream away
Close the curtain on today

Saturday, March 10, 2007 @12:46 AM

my mind is now in a bad stage.
so probably nt gonna blog much ;
but jus pretty sick tt thing keep repeatin itself.

kinda disappointed.
again.
neh neh.

sometimes i jus dunnoe wot i shld do.

sigh.

Thursday, March 08, 2007 @11:39 AM

RISE N SHINE.

oh yay.
i've been waited tis dae.
tt i dun need to set alarm to wake up
slp until i can automatically wake up on my own.

come on, u noe how much i love myself.

(:

n its so gd to listen to delta goodrem's "out of the blue" 1st thing in the mornin

(: (:

y i like delta goodrem so much?

cos she's a person i realli respect alot.
nt jus becos she gt the great talent in music.
can sing n write her own song.
but also how she face her destiny.

tho she started her singing career when she was 19.
her 1st single "born to try" was a great start.
she realli become v famous.

but she gt cancer at a very young age.

took her 1 and a half yr to fight wif cancer.
finalli she was back, wif the album "mistaken identity"

frm her songs in tt album like "out of the blue", "be strong", "last night on earth" etc.
can reflect all her feelin when she was down wif cancer.

her live performance @ japan music station - "flawed"


"together we are one" live @ common wealth game



aww. shes beautiful, isnt she? (:

Wednesday, March 07, 2007 @9:34 PM

ya same thing again.
so much to blog abt.
since tis mornin till now.

hmm.

1. daespring is gettin fun! n gettin scary too.
2. IM SO TIRED.
3. when can i go fer facial n salon??
4. $$$$$$$$$$ ):
5. prac hard fer my flute pls. i sounded damn sucky ytd. n im nt happi wif myself
6. i havin slpin prb.
5. i think i almost drool jus now while i was slpin on the bus.
8. i jus realised theres a typo. lazy to press backspace.
9. i need to go gym.
10. feel pretty contented now. almost wif everything.

can lar shall stop here.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007 @11:44 PM

SO MUCH TO BLOG ABT.

OKAY. CONGRATS TO PPLE POSTED TO THEIR DESIREE COURSE N SCH.

well. weiwei n shirley gonna be my jr!
lols. both in sonic arts.

but well. it gd u see.
liddat shirley can help me in flute.
since im pretty jia lart wan xD

yunus case.
yea. i've said out wot i wanna say.

then all i noe i very tired now.
realli. can melt.
okok. stop okay.

Monday, March 05, 2007 @9:21 PM

i think my appetite realli lost to marcus -_-

okok. todae i meet up marcus fer lunch.
cos he wanted to treat me (: !
we ate at billy bomber.

i told him i didnt eat @ billy bomber b4.
he was actualli shocked when he heard it.

aniway.
i was havin a terrible time
tryin to finish the fish n chip.
its just. too mani or too big fer me
i mean the servin.

goodness.
i feel bad u noe. cos its like pple treatin me lunch
but i cant finish it -.-

gawddd. he was luffin at me while i was tryin to finish the food

n i was so glad tt i finalli finished the fish n chip

after the waitress cleared our plate.
n the waitress ask,

'mdm n sir, can i serve the dessert now?'

i mean u can imagine how i look like when i heard tt already.

but okay lar.
managed to finish the ice cream.
it was ben n jerry chocolate ice crem.
the chocolate inside is soooo chewy.

aiya. dun tok abt it already.
it was so scary can.

nth much ltr on.
jus accompany him to bugis street.
lookin out fer blazer jacket.

quit a number of jokes happened while we were shoppin around.

ya after tt i went to meet weishi
accompany to funa IT mall.

lalala. then she went off. i made appointment fer my facial.
tts all. kinda borin rite?

nvm. band prac resume tmr (: ! yay.

@12:53 AM

bro cut off my net.
after awhile. gt connection frm linksys (: !

n was chattin wif adrian. tt si kuku
we were tokin abt findin job.

- - ` " ♫ , シ " op.SåʼnDŷ - Ten million years ; Ten million Tears says:
i was think givin tuition to kids
-=Adrian - 颜嘉辉=- Shooting stars.. Have you seen one? (Letters from Iwo Jima is good) says:
OMG
-=Adrian - 颜嘉辉=- Shooting stars.. Have you seen one? (Letters from Iwo Jima is good) says:
u dun ruin their future hahahas
- - ` " ♫ , シ " op.SåʼnDŷ - Ten million years ; Ten million Tears says:
....................................................

-_________-

and one more thing i have to blog abt is.
IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF.
my hair is gettin longer (: !

few peeps in swsy
realised abt my hair is growin LONGER xD

u pple. proud of me ornt? xD

Sunday, March 04, 2007 @11:04 PM

My Personality
Neuroticism
33
Extraversion
68
Openness To Experience
75
Agreeableness
73
Conscientiousness
46
You are sociable, outgoing, energetic, and lively. You prefer to be around people much of the time. Stressful and frustrating situations can sometimes be upsetting to you, but you are often able to get over these feelings and cope with these situations. Novelty, variety, and change spice up your life and make you a curious, imaginative, and creative person. You have a strong interest in others' needs and well-being. You are pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.


Neuroticism

You are generally calm, although some situations can make you feel anxious or tense. You rarely get angry and it takes a lot to make you angry. You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind. You are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.


Extraversion

You generally make friends easily enough although you mostly don't go out of your way to demonstrate positive feelings toward others. You like crowds but sometimes feel overwhelmed by them. Sometimes you feel like you need some privacy and time for yourself. You like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. You are usually the leader in group activites. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You enjoy some excitment and risk taking in your life. You experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy.

Openness To Experience

You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You have good access to and awareness of your own feelings. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. As a person who is open-minded to new and unusual ideas, you love to play with and think about ideas. You also like to debate intellectual issues and often enjoy riddles, puzzles and brain teasers. Often you exhibit a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. Sometimes you feel a certain degree of hostility toward rules and perhaps even enjoy ambiguity.

Agreeableness

You naturally assume that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. There are times when you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary, however you are mostly candid, frank and sincere. People find it moderately easy to relate to you. You will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you. You dislike confrontations and are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny your own needs in order to get along with others. You do not like to claim that you are better than other people, and generally shy from talking yourself up. You are mostly a compassionate person, however you prefer to make objective judgments when possible.

Conscientiousness

Often you do not feel effective, and may have a sense that you are not in control of your life. You are a reasonably organized person and like to have a certain amount of routine in your life. Your sense of duty and obligation is average and although you are mostly responsible you can sometimes be unreliable. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate. You are not an overly cautious person. You will think about alternatives and consequences but make up your mind fairly quickly.



@1:27 AM

i guess i must be tired out myself frm ytd.

well, finalli.
at least i've waited.
im kinda surprised by myself too.
to realise i've said smth tt i've been wanted to say.
plus i actualli said orderly wots on my mind n didnt screw up.

it last fer 7mths.
quite true i was some how runnin away frm yunus.
cos i was partly quite hurt by things he said.
plus he actualli shouted at me n all.
n dun wish to see him

blah blah.
wot more. i think i mostly forgot all of it i guess.
i've poor memory remb? (: no way better than huiling teh goldfish xD

however, i jus wanna thank pple who were there fer me.
bryan, kc and gar meng especiall.

not forgettin weiwei!
haha sure u helped alot ytd :D

yay yay (((:

right now
im loss of word.
dunnoe where to start.
to tell u my tots n feelin.

hmm. since tt way.
i shall jus random.

oh ya.
one of the misunderstood between me n yunus was tt.
he tot i've gt lots frends around. to depend n all.

but i told him back tt.
i do have lots of frends around.
tts jus a matter of socialising.
im sad to say,
i dun realli have mani friends realli n understand me v well.

ahh. i shall go deeper abt it.

hmm, i admit tt i have fear fer death.
nt as in me myself goin to die or wot.
its abt pple around us, like frend or family suddenly left.

it gives me some kind of chill in my heart.

back then. my gd frend/bandmate left
times when my mom said smth realli hurts me lots
when i actualli needed love the most.
n how i wished i have a complete family.

seems like i cldnt tk it tt kind of feelin last time.
tot of committin suicide. almost did. but
all i did was to wait fer the sun to rise again.

subconsciously
i told myself i dun wan die liddat.
along wif nth but onli sorrows.

n i have to agree wif morrie tt.
"Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live"

well. tts jus a gist of it.
dramatic ? ya i think so too :/

Saturday, March 03, 2007 @3:15 AM

Are you swimming upstream in oceans of blue?
Do you feel like you're sinking?
Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through?
Well I know what you're thinking
When you can't take it
You can make it
Sometime soon I know you'll see

Cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower
Whose colours have turned to shades of grey
Well hang on and be strong

We're taking each step one day at a time
You can't lose your spirit
Let live and let live, forget and forgive
It's all how you see it
And just remember keep it together
Don't you know you're never alone

No you're not defeated
And soon you'll be smiling once again
Then you won't have to feel it
Let it go with the wind
Time passes us by
And know that you're allowed to cry

- and my frends, tis is fer u n me.
anything frm the bottom of ur heart, they are priceless n precious to me.
realli.

Friday, March 02, 2007 @9:39 PM

ARGH. i cant breathe.
my nose is totalli blocked.
fever again!

i've been coughin-
WOT ABT MY AUDITIOM TMR??

DAMMIT

forget it.
moodless to blog.

Thursday, March 01, 2007 @7:14 PM


lets tok abt ytd.

it started out that i tot i was gonna be late fer work.
sinnee n kaile already reached at tanjong pagar, capital tower waitin fer me n edmund.

after tt i msged edmund tt i was on my way at city hall.
n i actualli took the wrong direction of EWline
panic man. especially when i saw edmund's msg


it says : FASTER LAR. SINGAPORE GT HOW MANI CITY HALL.

i faster change another train n manage to gt to tanjong pagar.

after i reached tanjong pagar.
i was lookin for edmund.

the place was so damn crowded tt i've no choice but have to call him.

me : OEI. where u???
Edmund : #@%$#%^! control station la dumb.
me : im at the control station -.-
edmund : hmmm....??
me : wait. which station u at..
Edmund : OPPS.

oh. tt dumbass was actulli at tiong bahru

>.>

quickly rushed to our work place.
28th story
at capital tower.


basicalli. the job was jus usherin the guest fer CISCO (a big wiresless company) some kind cny occasion

smile here n there.

tt event was quite fun.
gt buffet, fortune tellin, speech, lucky draw, tele presence ( is jus some kind of video call wif hong kong actors)

haha. the food there was realli nice! YUM.
went to see the fortune teller.


its kinda shock to hear things abt myself.


hmmmmmmmm




n we met the hk actors thru video conference haha!
so cool man. i actualli tryin to use cantonese to communicate wif them.








the guy in the middle, is so charmin!

after went to eat dinner @ amk wif sinnee n edmund.
shopped around.

was realli tirin. tt by the time i reached.

i was already collapse.
oh thanks edmund btw.
fer sendin me home. poor him. have to wait fer his frend at bt panjang :/

it was rrealli a gd n fun experience.
7bux per hr leh!
haha.









@1:08 AM

i update tmr.
havin cold, high fever and runny nose already.

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