shoot! havin a great pain in my ass.
u noe wot i mean.
cldnt stand str8 fer the bloody 4 hrs.
sigh-

okay. be suprise.
fer the 1st time i bought myself a pink top.
lol. dunnoe y i bought it. i must be out of my mind.
also bought some cute n funni thingy. nt gonna tell u wot i bought :X

tmr will be my last dae of shoppin.
like YAY. lemme spend finish all my ringgit b4 i leave KL.
hur hur. juz imagine i will look like some crazy woman
chiong the whole shoppin mall.
oh well. tts all-

so here. tryin my best.
pls dun feel down. til now. i still gonna protect u n all.
love u loads..

todae's overnight trip canceled.
due to my grandmom nt feelin well.

hai. my cousin n i wanted to go national park fer 2 days fer rock climbin
but my mom dun allow!!!!
wah laooo damn wasted lehhhhhh. )':

sian. i realli wish i can go home rite now tho.
budden again. impossible.
juz wait til 2/2.
heard they wanna go ipoh tmr.

sigh- feelin so pathetic............
there are things i realli cant deny.
oh well. off fer my quiet time!
kabom.gnore-

erm. changed a new layout. haha yupp-
wanted to a white background fer so long.

okay. didnt shop much todae cos nt mani shops open.
but but but. still got to eat my fave pasta at klcc.
i went fer 2 n a half round. was so full til i almost gonna puke on the car :|

dun think i'll be online tmr.
cos goin somewhere overnight which i dunnoe cos i forgot the name of tt place.
hai. cant catch malaysian philharmonic concert also-

oh well. i think i'm gettin abit homesick right.
missin everyone in spore ):
-shakes head.
so. how;s everyone? more n more ang bohs in the pocket?

lols. oh well. gotta slp now. cya two days late!

woah? like realli woah??
my ang boh's are in rm. nt singdollar ):
nvm. later can shopp. eh. goin klcc.
i miss the pasta there. lol-

hmmm. noe wot.
woke up around 620am.
went to top level of the condo flat juz to catch the mornin sun.
juz as the sunlight shines onto my face.
n wot i saw frm my eyes its. so beautiful..
n tt moment. i tot i was next to heaven..
realli. wonder if u ever felt tt way when u were flyin.
haha :] woaky- time fer shoppin! later~

leavin to KL till 2/2/06
hope i can buy lots of chewin gum n balloon gum :x
eh. bubble gum i mean. haha. cant be bother to press the backspace man.

b4 i go to bed.
i wld like to pray-

dear heavenly father.
i thank u fer givin me tis chance to go oversea.
as i always wish it fer.
n during this holidae trip-
i pray lord u will show me things tt u wan me to understand.
n at the same time. i also pray father u will protect my family
esp my bros in spore.
n also take gd care of my love one n frends.
once again i thank u father fer everything.
in jesus name i pray. amen-

yupp. realli hope i can clear my mind n heart durin tis trip.
n tis time i'll nvr run away frm myself. nvr..
cos i realli want to believe..
where's the courage which we use to have in us...
juz hold still again- its nt too far yet.

:]]
keep updatin soon! -wink

4.39am right now.
bingo- i'm nt aslp yet. was downloadin fullmetal alchemist movie fer the bloody 2 daes n..
no eng subtitle...........@#$%^&!!! sigh- sob.
oh well. nvm. at least i can watch it tmr on my way to KL.

n while i was waitin fer my anime to download finish juz now.
was settin up my own private blog. where all my emo tots n all exist.
hmm.. i was thinkin lots of stuffs in the past.

yaya. i was a bad ger last time. n pple wld call it bitch.
i was once a hardcore joker. i was the most unwanted attenion seeker-
i was once treated like a freak by other pple.
n i blamed myself i was such a loser..

to think back tt time lots of stuffs struck me at one shot.
i dun think god overdid it.
hmmm. it was juz the beginning fer me.

poof- and i'm here doin my best to light up every smile tt i dun wanna miss : D : D
u guys are the reason tt i dun wan to give up-
like u over there! n there- up there n everywhere (x

n blah blah blah. therefore i blah blah think blah u.
u're such blah blah. so blah blah blah blah?
n i goes blah blah blah. n do u noe y i blah blah blah.
cos my auntie blah blah me to blah off to my bed rite now
as blah blah 5.10am now
dun be blah blah blah tt i'll be online in the afternoon.
most probably i'll blah blah blahh till my blah blah hurts.
so blah blah pple. thanks fer readin my blah blah blah shit.
whahahaha :]

bwahaha. oh no.
was watchin my bro playin resident evil 4 last night.
omg. is so coool la re4 compare to those 1-3.
but too bad. i dun think i dare to play fer the time begin :x
wanted to play kingdom heart 2. but. stupid its in jap. i cant read jap!
left bleach, naruto and fullmetal alchemist fer me.
i prefer rpg game tho. hmmm.

i'm still slackin. wanted to go fer job interview actualli
budden again. rpws plannin to have intensive band prac.
like pfoow- i got 4 days of band prac in a wk. so well.
nvm. i love bandd more. lol.

alright. goin to KL tis comin sat.
hai. wanted to have reunion dinner on fri.
but second bro cant make it cos he need do guard...
saddenin eh? oh well.
k la. finalli i can prac piano anitime i wan. wahah.
oh yes yes, i bringing my laptop there.
lol. can online fer 24/7

my cousin wanna bring me to see some of symphony band at KL.
hoho. its jus gonna be so fun la.
hmmm.. haha. ya-

thinkin abt ytd durin the whole band were tokin.
i was pretty touched by each n everyone of 'em
haha. ya. juz luv 'em so much.
hmm. guess i started to understand smth frm wot morrie said in the bk.
haha. thanks to who ? :x lol. love ya piggie- (:(:

k la pple. enjoy durin tis comin holidae season.
and i'll be backk to update- like roarrrrrrrrr-
lol. take care n god bless :]

a scattered dream tts like a far-off memory.
a far-off memory tts like a scattered dream.
i want to line the pieces up
-- urs n mine

I wonder how I ever made it through a day
How did I settle for a world of shades of gray?
When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know how
And I looked into your eyes
With the world sretched out in front of me and I realized

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived before your love

I wanted more than just an ordinary life
All of my dreams seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before you when my heart was in your hands
And I don't know how
I survived without your kiss
'Cause you've given me a reason to exist

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived
I never lived before your love
I never lived before your love

And I don't know why
Why the sun decides to shine
But you breathed your love into me just in time

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived
I never lived before your love

man man man. wot a dae.
ezlink left 20 cents.
my mom's face colour is realli as black as. eh.
the sky colour outside my window rite now?
n yes thanks to my eldest bro once again.
ya. nopp. i still didnt tok to him fer the long time.
i realli wish he can grow up n be a man.
oh well. i guess i cant say much abt it too. bahh-

messy. way to messy..
singing is the onli thing tt can make me feel alive once again.
haha.

aniway. enjoy to the song u're listenin rite now on my blog.
is so nicee. love the lyrics.
sry! too lazy to translate :X

but still do enjoy the song k (:

"Therefore i tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins."
--MARK 11:24 - 25

its been a pretty long time tt i didnt blog ani new entry :/
rp had it open house. rpws performance was realli fun :]
haha. enjoyed myself-
but. lots of things happened. and i almost wanted to give up.
but i realli wan to thank God. nvr fail to protect me and my love ones out there (:


hmm. if a person's memory can be like video tape.. no, now pple usin dvd-r.
ya.. can record down all the nice nice part etc. play n watch it. wldnt be nice?
if its possible. we can use all the gd memories to cover all the bad ones.
yupp yup. lets us now start record all the gd memories alright (:

oh great. finalli there's connection.
feelin freakin weak. guess i'm gettin slpy rite now.
to be honest. i was cryin juz now.
told yunus abt my crazy tots.
haha. no. i'm nt sad at all. realli. so ya. dun worry (:

k la. go ahead n say i'm a weird person or wadever it is.
but i'm juz doin things tt my heart tells me to.
god will nvr let ani of his children down. esp when they believe so much n doin their best.

hmm.. was hopin u goin call me again.
but well. forgot tt u still havin sch the next dae.
actualli there're lots of lots of things wanted to tell u.
n i dunnoe y. feel so hard juz to open my mouth n let my words reach to ur heart.

blah blah.
hope u readin tis rite now.
my dear dear dearest piggie.
maybe there're lots of things flyin around in ur head now.
i noe. i also felt tis way in the 1st place.
but. like u told me b4. as long as u realli love someone and love him wif all u've got.
n i realli do.

i dun mind wot u done in the past.
but one thing i noe tt. u're so strong.
u realli do wadever it takes juz to archive ur dream and all.

so glad i found u.
u woke me up frm long n endless slp.
i shldnt idlin around blindly.
it so scary when knowin urself become v emotionless n numb.
i cldnt believe i cried again after so longg.
u noe wot. ur gentleness sure warms me lots.

actualli watchin tv also nt tt borin after all.
the feelin of playin on the grand piano realli feels freakin shiok.
i realised i've missed mani mani amazin stuffs.
n nvr knew tt it felt so cozy esp when puttin my head on ur shoulder.

sometime i also wish to turn back time.
hope i realli didnt make those stupid mistakes in my life too.
but god gave me 2nd chance. n i gonna cherish it tis time.

i realli want to fill up all ur emptiness
hold u tight n protect u.
i love u. n i realli realli do ((:

tis isnt fairrrr.
when i woke up the weather like so nice.
now i standin outside my house. n suddenly its look like goin to rain.
@#$%^&*^%$!!-
bahhh- aniway. so amazin. i slp fer 10 hrs.
n i still feelin tired.

i realise there're lots thing i didnt get to see fer myself.
seriously. i think i've wasted lots of my time.
guess i shld stop the habit of walkin in the rain.
cos. think i dun have ani more gd reason to do so.

hmmm. i feel so noooob these few days.
dun. dun ask me y. nt goin to tell u y.
rite now i got so mani things i wanna tell u guys.
but i dunnoe how to type it out.

nvm la. guess soon or later i will tell u all when i got the inspiration.
yupp.

ps. heyys. thanks fer ur everything. realli love the way u are esp when u playin the piano. haha. oh well.

its 2.13am rite now.
havin slight gastric pain n its still raining outside.
all my family members' slpin.

and i've been thinking abt my life.
still remember my old entries.
i kept complainin tt i livin in dead world, boring, meaningless and bo liao life?
wishin i cld be in like final fantasy world?
i was wrong..

u nvr noe wot's goin to happen next.
unpredictable. i might die suddenly. or i tio lucky draw again.
one more thing is. i shldnt be sittin around here n do nth.
i wanna do smth tts worth it.

u might think i'm crazy.
cos i plannin to reg n donate my organs if ani things happen to me.
esp my heart. y?
there's some case like a person do transplant n receive donor's heart.
tt person actualli enthralled by the memories of the donor.
ya. i still wanna take gd care of everyone too. tts y.
ofcos. i wanna help the others who struggelin to live on. so ya..

i'm so glad tt the locked door inside me its finalli open.
i wonder whether izit becos god heard my prayer.
but i wanna give myself a chance.
tis time around i realli wish i can protect the pple out there tt i care n love.

in my life. i love them all..

haha. wahahaha. fwahahahhaahaahaha.
okay. tts abit bo liao. oh well.
back to bloggin again. yup.
was tryin to find a new layout fer my blog on blogskins.com
but... sad la. cldnt find ani nice design tt suits me. sigh-

nvm. dun tok abt it already.
its drizzling outside.but the sun still shining up there.
n right now i listenin to 1st gymnopedie. n its. its FLUTE VERSION.
so coooooooooooooool. eh. thanks piggie. hmm. hmmmmm.. :]

aniways. reminds me forrest gump.
haha. if i nt wrong. there's a part when forrest was so confuse fer smth.
and he was kinda out of his mind. he juz keep running non stop.
run all the way. till his hair grow until v long n blahh.
n he stopp running when he saw the most beautiful scenery in his whole life.
smth liddat. yaa. dun u find it so meaningful?

i also had tt kind of feeling b4. when i went to st pats.
lookin desmond, hilmi n james playin around. k. i dunnoe how to describe but.
i was so touched by things tt i saw tt dae.
oh well. i realli like forrest gump tis movie. tho i onli watched it once onli.

'- life is like a box of chocolates.' tts wot forrest said in the movie.
dun realli understand wot it means. guess i will get it one dae. haha. ya.

mann, think i shld realli plann wot to do in my life.
can i be like forrest too? haha. madness.
if one dae i realli found smth its so precious in life.
i realli love to share it wif u guys.
well. shall stop here. will update soon. :D:D tata-

okayy, stop the blog music. listen to tis wan below noww. click play :D

aniway. been listening to tis song recently.
juz love tis song so much. esp the lyrics.
sry to those who cant understand chinese. i also lazy to translate :x
haha yupp.
argh. stupid desmond n timmie luffin at my typo on msn. -_-'
ahem aniway ya. lets continue.

hmm somehow. things like gettin different compare to last time.
i started to hugg my pillow tighter when i'm slpin
like to luff n smile at myself when NO one is around :D
stare in the air n dae dreamin alll way.

n yes. u noe wot. whenever i received smth special unexpectedly.
my heart didnt beats faster. but the way my heart beats is so gentle..
v cozy. nvr felt tis way b4.

it makes me feel i'm the most most happiest person in tis world!! haha!!'madness.

i dun care wots gonna happen in future.
juz wanna stay beside u. always.

hmmm. tts all fer todae. yupp.
ciaoz-

alrity. did a slight change on my blog cos.
lol. winter's overrrrr. its 2oo6!
yupp. aniway. hope u guys will like this song u're listening to rite now (:

in tis 2oo6.
i hope my frends n jrs do well in their studies in sch.
n also hope everyone will live happilyyy together.
yupp. no matter wot happen-
nvr give up kkae.
haha ya.

ya! 2oo6. muahah. soon. k la nt tt soon. i gonna be 18yr old.
reminds me of angie bdae which is like few days away. lols.
18yr old is like so cool lorr haha!
oh noooo there're so mani things i wanna doo tis yrrr :S :S
heh. oh well.
sure everybodi also feelin the same as me. lols

hmm. shall stop here then hur hur.
not much inspiration todae.
aniways. guess i starting to understand something.
well. onli my heart beat can explain to u (:(: hahahah.

okayy. will update soon.
tc everyoneeee tc :]

sandy lee si min
24/9/1988.
RP - STA - Sonic Arts
wind symphony / acapella -mia-

music
fluatist
flute player (:

Oh, life is a glorious cycle of song,
A medley of extemporanea;
And love is a thing that can never go wrong;

under the surface
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