Tuesday, November 21, 2006 @2:33 PM
"love urself before u love others"
tryin to eat panadols. committin suicide.
jus becos u cant take the pain. or rather u wan the person back so badly.
if u love someone.
u are willing to let him/her go.
do u ever love urself?
makin urself to stay healthy?
make urself happi?
open the door tt lies in ur heart?
face ur everything alone?
or now u jus wanna gt affection frm someone-
jus to cover up.
wadever it is. tts ur life.
maybe u've forgetten.
but i think it nt necessary to bring up. cos it a past.
however i still able to be here todae.
well its nth to be proud abt.
but its wot it takes to get thru.
life nvr be perfect.
so dun get mad when things its nt goin in a way tt u've planned.
im nt perfect.
ya. duh.
my mistake and past are jokes tt i luff at.
dun have to look back.
its all u have to do.
smth more awaits fer u in future.
be thankful. u have future.
happily spamin, floodin.
endless soap opera.
lastly, life is simple.
its just a philosophy. someone came up wif it.
Sunday, November 19, 2006 @4:18 PM
gar meng was too shy abt it ;]
so he ask me to take off the conversation-
aniways thanks.
@2:55 AM
there are times i keep all the things to myself.
i keep quiet and all.
but all tt i've saw, i've heard.
already written deep down sliently both in my mind and heart.
but nt in my face.
maybe no one actualli realise tt-
so believe it.
cos i will feel it.
Saturday, November 18, 2006 @12:49 PM
yesh. i reformatted my laptop.
its so much faster.
and im like now layin on the bed la.
seriously. so tired.
finalli can rest at home.
at the same time i also plannin stuffs fer dec :D
i wanna shoppin shoppin. savin money fer shoppin-
ya. also practicin hard fer concert.
doin lots of work out. to stay healthy.
so hopefully my body can take it after all these stress which im takin.
yea. nth much to update abt.
beside ytd me and doreen were doin smth weird o.0
lols. so yea people.
do take care.
do listen to Josh Groban new single
- you're loved (don't give up)
its nice :]
Tuesday, November 14, 2006 @2:15 PM
FINALLY.
gt the chance to update.
aniways. to those pple who i've ignored on msn.
sry. i didnt did it on purpose cos my keyboard is spoil ):
gee. im havin a hard time la.
ya. im usin sch's laptop now.
nth much happened recently.
went to vivo city. brought jelly bean :D
brought it to sch. finalli gt the chance to do some catch up wif frends.
and im now already in both holidae and xmas mood xD !!!
suddenly. frends askin me to go ktv n shoppin wif 'em o.0
yes. GERS. INTERESTED to have some sport activities together?
jus gimmie a ring ya :D
2,3 band performace comin up in dec.
looks like i gonna be bz soon.
i also kinda headach for bdae present too. sigh.
oh ya jus found out frm zhi kai aka keith that.
bathing ape shirt cost around $175!?!? wtf?
tts so bloody random.
okays. i think i shld pay more attention now.
havin prb solvin presentation now. cya-!
Monday, November 06, 2006 @12:33 AM
HAPPI 400th ENTRY. YAY.
yea. after i think around 6months.
i finally come back to singapore wind symphony youth.
wot were my reasons leavin the band last time?
ya. band fund was part of it.
and becos i felt tt i cldnt fit in wif them.
like my playin. compare to 'em
and i seriously dun felt gd inside.
but well.
after a long 'rest' (?)
i think. tis time i must OVERCOME it \(*.*)/
tho durin todae's band prac.
i lost, came in wrong bar, wrong note fer 52915816 times.
o well. but thanks pple, fer makin me feel somehow welcome-
esp colin :] i was so blur wif the scores. lol-
sadly. STILL nobodi wants to buy SSW concert tixs -.-
yup. the usual dinner and all.
AND. was so bloody freezin on my way home.
shld have brought my jacket along.
bahh.
i also feel kinda stupid and silly. becos of some reasons.
i think i shld keep quiet. cos.
im in some deep trouble. big time-
but. i realli wanted to drink hot milo.
ya. together.
Sunday, November 05, 2006 @2:14 AM
im back frm sentosa.
was celebrating siying and her cousin's bdae.
ya saw kaile, edmund and jonathan there.
cos SA was havin smth at sentosa i guess.
i was quite surprised.
all the things happened todae.
fer the 1st time i cld feel my existence is there.
pple do realise abt me and all.
pple realli do treat me as their frends and all.
im so happi-
Friday, November 03, 2006 @1:59 PM
ytd was THE MOST HORRIBLE DAE fer me.
really. i swear.
well at least, i feeling much better todae.
oh no. sandy so in the xmas mood.
u gotta save her.
and aniways. jus blogg fer fun now.
so mani things i wanna say
but i dunnoe how to express it out.
oh sandy. pls cool down.
but.
i jus cant stop think abt things over and over again.
bah.
okay. gonna meet jamie and janice tmr.
haha. its been a long time to have a small gathering
wif them. haha. ya i miss them.
k la. shall stop here. 2.o1pm
time fer presentation.
bye-
Wednesday, November 01, 2006 @1:01 AM
my class had halloween party.
going around and shout 'tricks or treats?!'
haha. lovely class.
so thankful and lucky to have such a lovely class :]
and jus came back frm pastamina!
creamy pasta. yum yum.
and i ate until so clear lar. lols-
i still can smile and luff my heart out.
my heart still shine.
cos i believe.
they are there. yes they are them.
im there.
maybe someday you will understand.
tho its nt now.
you should look at the mirror.
it doesnt really matter.
cos it goes to the end of chapter.
tryin recklessly.
hurts no one but you.
U can try. but u cant take that away frm me.
the light in me.
no regrets. this is my life.
im not afraid.
lets struggel it together.
lets cry out loud together.
lets luff our arse out together.
and together fer tmr.
p.s
and yes
i met tis person.
the feeling shld be unfamiliar but its nt.
im curious wots gonna happen next.
