Sunday, May 01, 2005 @10:56 PM
bleah. i'm at candice's house right now.
she havin math tuition.
shall use tis time to quickly update.
well. fallin sick soon.
sigh- i still v disapointed wif my mom.
she juz dun understand me.
is nt tt i dun wan to study.
but i still got lots things have to settle.
i juz wan her to noe tt. i already a young adult.
i noe wot to do. i dun wan naggin frm her.
but i need her to be there support n encourage me.
guess i cant catch my percussion performin at istana.
1stly. i'm sick. 2ndly. i realli nt in the mood.
sryy pple.
i dunnoe wot happen to me.
i hope i can get over tis asap.
i dun wish the both of us continue to be like this.
is silly to say tt. i still miss u.
tho i noe is useless to say anithing.
but i feel so ashame tt i always need to depend on someone.
realli dun wan see myself in tis situation.
is there aniway tt we can go back like last time.
i miss ur smile.
i tryin so hard nt to let u noe how much i miss u.
aint a relationship prb but u're juz a smth tt means so much to me.
i noe i sound v silly. someone realli gotta cure my illness.
so hard. so hurts.
yet it's so beautiful.
so sweet. so warm.
yet it's so bitter.
