Sunday, March 04, 2007 @1:27 AM
i guess i must be tired out myself frm ytd.
well, finalli.
at least i've waited.
im kinda surprised by myself too.
to realise i've said smth tt i've been wanted to say.
plus i actualli said orderly wots on my mind n didnt screw up.
it last fer 7mths.
quite true i was some how runnin away frm yunus.
cos i was partly quite hurt by things he said.
plus he actualli shouted at me n all.
n dun wish to see him
blah blah.
wot more. i think i mostly forgot all of it i guess.
i've poor memory remb? (: no way better than huiling teh goldfish xD
however, i jus wanna thank pple who were there fer me.
bryan, kc and gar meng especiall.
not forgettin weiwei!
haha sure u helped alot ytd :D
yay yay (((:
right now
im loss of word.
dunnoe where to start.
to tell u my tots n feelin.
hmm. since tt way.
i shall jus random.
oh ya.
one of the misunderstood between me n yunus was tt.
he tot i've gt lots frends around. to depend n all.
but i told him back tt.
i do have lots of frends around.
tts jus a matter of socialising.
im sad to say,
i dun realli have mani friends realli n understand me v well.
ahh. i shall go deeper abt it.
hmm, i admit tt i have fear fer death.
nt as in me myself goin to die or wot.
its abt pple around us, like frend or family suddenly left.
it gives me some kind of chill in my heart.
back then. my gd frend/bandmate left
times when my mom said smth realli hurts me lots
when i actualli needed love the most.
n how i wished i have a complete family.
seems like i cldnt tk it tt kind of feelin last time.
tot of committin suicide. almost did. but
all i did was to wait fer the sun to rise again.
subconsciously
i told myself i dun wan die liddat.
along wif nth but onli sorrows.
n i have to agree wif morrie tt.
"Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live"well. tts jus a gist of it.
dramatic ? ya i think so too :/
